Lamar Odom has come a long way since he was found unconscious in a Las Vegas brothel 17 months ago, admitting now he is a "walking miracle."
The former NBA player told Us Weekly he is completely sober after completing a 30-day stint in rehab in January, and opened up about his past drug use.
"Living sober, meaning no drugs, is a great feeling," Odom said. "Being in the moment is important — how you react, respond, create. If I would have done coke last night, you would have gotten some dickhead here trying to get out of here fast. But you’re getting Lamar now."
Odom was also candid about the night he ended up in the brothel, revealing he suffered 12 strokes and two heart attacks during the Oct. 13, 2015 incident.
"I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all," Odom said. "When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth."
Odom admitted he used to sneak around to do drugs when he was married to reality star Khloe Kardashian. Combined with his infidelity, Kardashian filed for divorce, which further contributed to his downward spiral.
However, the brothel incident didn't stop his use of cocaine. Odom said his recent stint in rehab came after his 18-year-old daughter, Destiny, threatened to stop speaking to him.
"My daughter gave me the ultimatum to go. She said, 'Pops, you get help or I won’t talk to you.' I think she saw it in my behavior," Odom explained. "Coke is a real psychological drug. You can be getting high and feeling great and then on the way down cursing yourself out. So I think it was one of those moments on the way down."
Odom said he is now closer than ever to his daughter and son, 14-year-old Lamar Jr., and has been open about his experiences.
"My kids were really scared that their dad wasn’t going to be here," Odom said. "It was good bonding time with them when they came to see me. They said, 'Dad, we want you to be here.' I was honest with them. There is no reason to lie now. But it was good for them to know it is a disease and one I may pass back to them."